With lights illuminating deserted ways, the sun brightening similar days
And still no robot turns its head to see the world will soon be dead
Forget the fact that it’s our fault- we’re blind to see our own downfall
A rainbow here, a teardrop there, say so much , but who should care?
The lonely cry of forsaken children begs someone hear it, someone listen
Sadly, robots force their way through where deserted children play
With all we’ve lost, our morals gone, who is it still awakes the dawn?
Is there yet hope for lost and left? Through cruelty, has faith been kept?
Awake, my love, soar high and sing upon the winds and angel wings
Through the crowdsof robots loud who’s love is lost to greed
]]>And feeling suicidal
So much pain so much grief
But I know I can’t leave
I get tired of it all
Want to make a final call
I try to escape reality
But it all crashes down on me
Can’t get anything right
It’s like it happens in spite
Of the things that I try
To keep my life on the line
It’s so hard to forget
Easier to regret
So much pain inside me
Trying to be set free
I feel the urge to scream
But I’m so silent it seems
Like everything is ok
But it’s just not that way
I start to feel a burn
Of all the stuff that I yearn
For in my dark heart of hearts
Feels like I’m falling apart
No matter how hard I try
I just cannot touch the sky
While all my dreams fall apart
I feel the sick nightmares start
So many cold memories
And I’m alone when I see
Disturbing ghosts from my past
I just don’t know if I’ll last
Feel like the water’s run dry
But nobody asks why
It’s like they don’t really care
They only stop, gape and stare
Like some sort of novelty piece
Like something from off the street
And then they just walk away
But I’m glad they don’t stay
Because this fire I feel
It’s my own and it’s real
But no one else can see
This fire burning in me
I’m just waiting for the day
When the wrong person will say
The wrong thing to me
And the fire will be set free
I know it will be unleashed
And touch hearts never been reached
But for now I’ll contain it
Try hard to restrain it
I can’t do this alone
But I’m here on my own
And no one will ever feel
The way I do.
]]>Locking tight the chamber to find it all in vain
Frightened and withdrawn, fighting off evil within
Sick of all the failure but lacking the strength to win
Forever in a maze, neverending fatal blows
Curious how you scream aloud but noone ever knows
Striking out in vain to disarm unknown attackers
Losing every battle and feeling like it never matters
Every time you frown, or tears escape your eyes
You feel the sun go black as rain pours down from the skies
Shaping every moment as if it could be your last
Seems like it was just yesterday, how time flies so fast
Leaving you behind with your memories, your grief
Waiting for the moment when your mind and soul are weak
Locks, bars and chains hang about you on the walls
Reminding you of all the times, of weakness and of falls
Forgetting those you care about in the passion of the moment
Only to lose your final love on the path that you have chosen
The stars will fall, the seas will cry
And in that moment, love will die.
]]>As I call out your name
Someone reach out
Save me from this mess
That I, once again, am in
Maybe there’s someone out there
But right now, I’m alone
Surrounded by this sin
If I cry out, can they hear me?
If I shout, will they acknowledge?
If my screams of terror
Of brutal pain, surround them
Will they even know I’m here?
They’ve never heard before
Never seen my frightening pain
An if they ever heard?
Does that really mean a thing?
Just because they hear my cries
Does not mean they’ll answer
I have heard your Words
But should they be ever true
Then My pain should lift
And I should be as clean as You
Should your grace be proven
My torture should be ended
Like your Son, I should be risen
But I am here, on the path I’ve treaded
For so long, in misery
Oh God, Please hear me
I the desolate
Please hear the prayer of the unknown.
You know that I won’t let us get too far apart
There’s a light at the end of the tunnel they say
So open your eyes and believe there’s a way
This path that we’re on is so long and fierce
We’ve been through so much in these pain ridden years
But soon you will see what I see inside you
So show me your eyes so I know you see too
There is no need to hide or keep running away
I know that you’re scared but that’s why you should stay
To show them you’re bigger and stronger than them
Open your eyes and just try again
Lift up your head I want to look into your eyes
Forget what they’ve said, go on and live your own life
It’s not too late to show them who you are inside
So lift up your head, wipe your tears, and show them your eyes
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The pain and dread that I have felt
Is nothing compared to what I have dealt
And my anger will come fast, hearts to melt
But it’s not what I want
These silver chains are my sweet reward
And my crown jewel is but a crown of thorn
My heartfelt love is ripped and torn
Reminding me why I must die
So I’ll spill all my blood on the floor
Lay the knife and the sword down once more
And one last time, your pain I’ll endure
Even if I burn for eternity
Good Night forever, you mockingbird love
Quote your alibi to the angels above
Maybe one will fall like an injured dove
Just like me.
I want to swim with you to the other side
Where we’ll laugh again, like little kids
But our joy is a different kind
Because we know we can’t change what we did
Mistakes we made, And they can’t be undone
But we can try to salvage the good
To forgive is divine, and we will touch the sun
Without each other we never could
I want to run through the field with the wind at my back
Knowing you’re right beside me
I want to understand the love I never had
knowing these chains are what set me free
I want to climb the old crab tree
And eat the fruit that it heavily bears
Then fall asleep, completely carefree
knowing nothing matters, no one cares
I want to wake and watch the clouds roll by
And try to see the different shapes
To know everything’s ok, and just close my eyes
To completely forget our yesterdays
It was a cloudy, gloomy day in the first few weeks of June. Despite the lack of sunshine though, it was very hot. It was perfect hurricane weather. I had seen a lot of storms in my life, but never had I seen such strange weather. I had been planning a drive through the woods for two weeks though, so I was determined to go out, even if there was a hurricane threat. So, that morning I hopped on a borrowed ATV and set off on the trails. The plan was to follow the trails until dusk. When the sun began to set, I would start looking for one of the forty-five campsites and bed down for the night. The next morning I would get up and get going again. My full trip was to last five days and four nights. My girlfriend was less than thrilled about spending five days in the woods, so she stayed behind and planned to meet me at the end of the trails at noon on the fifth day.
The mosquitoes were horridly annoying that day. whenever I stopped for food or to refill my gas, they swarmed around me like bees around honey. Whenever I started back up again, they pelted me like hail. I was tempted to turn around and go back to one of the farms and borrow one of the crop planes so i could spray all of those little pests.
One stop I made changed my life forever. This stop, like every other stop, was just for a bite to eat and to do a bit of stretching. Unlike my other stops though, this one was on the shore of a burn. It was a small burn and there was barely any water trickling over the rocks, but further downstream the water collected and then created a waterfall. It was just enough to make the sound of flowing water. After i had rested a while and tormented a few ants for long enough, I decided it was time to shove off. I was jsut about to put my helmet back on when I heard an animal in the bushes.
]]>I saw your mom
It scared me to see her smile
Because it seems like not too long
Since she held the body of her child
Where did we go wrong with you
What could we have done better?
To make you know our love was true
Without you signing that suicide letter
I miss you terribly so
But it’s an awkward kind of feeling
to let other people know
that your death still leaves me reeling
You have no clue
what you’ve done to me
But what can I do
You’re just gone, see?
I’ve taken up a sword
against choking chains
And I give you my word
I won’t let it happen again
I know I can’t stop them all
But I can stop some
Just help me give the call
and I know they will come
Give Jesus a hug
and tell God all my plans
And tell the angels above
That I give my Amen
Take this red rose
and my ring of silver
Tell me what you chose
and let it flow like the river
Love me
]]>But now you’re hurt
And I can say I know just how you feel
It will take long
But I promise that the wounds are gonna heal
I watched your dreams go
From worms to butterflies
But when the rain began
They all tried to hide
And in your heart I watch
Butterflies fly away
If I catch one in my hands
then will you let me stay?
Close the door
But open up a window
Watch the flowers
dancing in the sun
Let me know
If you hear my voice
just say so
I want you to
Always feel my love
for you
Let me know
If you’re still alive
Just say so
Because even though
I see your life
Dancing in
your broken eyes
They don’t show
whatI know is in your cold dark heart
What I feel in the echo of your heartbeat
In the patter of your little feet
No they don’t show
What I know you hide so well inside
No one knows
What you hold in your fist oh so tight
So close your eyes
And when they open there will be no more night
And I promise you
I’ll be here too
I will wait here just for you
And in your heart I waitch
Butterflies fly away
If I catch one in my hands
then will you let me stay?
Close the door
but open up a window
Watch the flowers
Dancing in the sun
I watched you dance
I watched you grow
I watched you prepare for tomorrow
Don’t give up
Don’t give in
Unleash the wonder that you hold down deep within
And my butterfly
(precious butterfly)
Oh, My butterfly
(precious Butterfly)
Precious Butterfly
My Butterfly
Will Dance
Again.
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