I lay at night and think about the way the world seems to turn out

With lights illuminating deserted ways, the sun brightening similar days

And still no robot turns its head to see the world will soon be dead

Forget the fact that it’s our fault- we’re blind to see our own downfall

 A rainbow here, a teardrop there, say so much , but who should care? 

 The lonely cry of forsaken children begs someone hear it, someone listen

Sadly, robots force their way through where deserted children play

With all we’ve lost, our morals gone, who is it still awakes the dawn? 

Is there yet hope for lost and left?  Through cruelty, has faith been kept? 

Awake, my love, soar high and sing upon the winds and angel wings

Through the crowdsof robots loud who’s love is lost to greed

Sitting here idle

And feeling suicidal

So much pain so much grief

But I know I can’t leave

I get tired of it all

Want to make a final call

I try to escape reality

But it all crashes down on me

Can’t get anything right

It’s like it happens in spite

Of the things that I try

To keep my life on the line

It’s so hard to forget

Easier to regret

So much pain inside me

Trying to be set free

I feel the urge to scream

But I’m so silent it seems

Like everything is ok

But it’s just not that way

I start to feel a burn

Of all the stuff that I yearn

For in my dark heart of hearts

Feels like I’m falling apart

No matter how hard I try

I just cannot touch the sky

While all my dreams fall apart

I feel the sick nightmares start

So many cold memories

And I’m alone when I see

Disturbing ghosts from my past

I just don’t know if I’ll last

Feel like the water’s run dry

But nobody asks why

It’s like they don’t really care

They only stop, gape and stare

Like some sort of novelty piece

Like something from off the street

And then they just walk away

But I’m glad they don’t stay

Because this fire I feel

It’s my own and it’s real

But no one else can see

This fire burning in me

I’m just waiting for the day

When the wrong person will say

The wrong thing to me

And the fire will be set free

I know it will be unleashed

And touch hearts never been reached

But for now I’ll contain it

Try hard to restrain it

I can’t do this alone

But I’m here on my own

And no one will ever feel

The way I do.

Clamping shut the door where reality escapes

Locking tight the chamber to find it all in vain

Frightened and withdrawn, fighting off evil within

Sick of all the failure but lacking the strength to win

Forever in a maze, neverending fatal blows

Curious how you scream aloud but noone ever knows

Striking out in vain to disarm unknown attackers

Losing every battle and feeling like it never matters

Every time you frown, or tears escape your eyes

You feel the sun go black as rain pours down from the skies

Shaping every moment as if it could be your last

Seems like it was just yesterday, how time flies so fast

Leaving you behind with your memories, your grief

Waiting for the moment when your mind and soul are weak

Locks, bars and chains hang about you on the walls

Reminding you of all the times, of weakness and of falls

Forgetting those you care about in the passion of the moment

Only to lose your final love on the path that you have chosen

The stars will fall, the seas will cry

And in that moment, love will die.

Giving up is not an option
Going on is just too hard
I try to forget, but I never can
I always remember, when I see the scars
Of a time in life, that ever changed me
I can not contain these
Feelings of hurt and pain
And I drop to my knees

As I call out your name

Someone reach out
Save me from this mess
That I, once again, am in
Maybe there’s someone out there
But right now, I’m alone
Surrounded by this sin

If I cry out, can they hear me?
If I shout, will they acknowledge?
If my screams of terror
Of brutal pain, surround them
Will they even know I’m here?
They’ve never heard before
Never seen my frightening pain
An if they ever heard?
Does that really mean a thing?
Just because they hear my cries
Does not mean they’ll answer

I have heard your Words
But should they be ever true
Then My pain should lift
And I should be as clean as You
Should your grace be proven
My torture should be ended
Like your Son, I should be risen
But I am here, on the path I’ve treaded
For so long, in misery
Oh God, Please hear me
I the desolate
Please hear the prayer of the unknown.

Walk away if you must and protect your own heart

You know that I won’t let us get too far apart

There’s a light at the end of the tunnel they say

So open your eyes and believe there’s a way

This path that we’re on is so long and fierce

We’ve been through so much in these pain ridden years

But soon you will see what I see inside you

So show me your eyes so I know you see too

There is no need to hide or keep running away

I know that you’re scared but that’s why you should stay

To show them you’re bigger and stronger than them

Open your eyes and just try again

Lift up your head I want to look into your eyes

Forget what they’ve said, go on and live your own life

It’s not too late to show them who you are inside

So lift up your head, wipe your tears, and show them your eyes

I came across a house last summer. Just like my girlfriend had me from hello, this house stole my heart from the very beginning. Many people will tell you I should have just kept driving and never given the place a second glance. Others will tell you they couldn’t possibly be more jealous. Either way I wouldn’t trade the time I spent in that house for anything.

It was a cloudy, gloomy day in the first few weeks of June. Despite the lack of sunshine though, it was very hot. It was perfect hurricane weather. I had seen a lot of storms in my life, but never had I seen such strange weather. I had been planning a drive through the woods for two weeks though, so I was determined to go out, even if there was a hurricane threat. So, that morning I hopped on a borrowed ATV and set off on the trails. The plan was to follow the trails until dusk. When the sun began to set, I would start looking for one of the forty-five campsites and bed down for the night. The next morning I would get up and get going again. My full trip was to last five days and four nights. My girlfriend was less than thrilled about spending five days in the woods, so she stayed behind and planned to meet me at the end of the trails at noon on the fifth day.

The mosquitoes were horridly annoying that day. whenever I stopped for food or to refill my gas, they swarmed around me like bees around honey. Whenever I started back up again, they pelted me like hail. I was tempted to turn around and go back to one of the farms and borrow one of the crop planes so i could spray all of those little pests.

One stop I made changed my life forever. This stop, like every other stop, was just for a bite to eat and to do a bit of stretching. Unlike my other stops though, this one was on the shore of a burn. It was a small burn and there was barely any water trickling over the rocks, but further downstream the water collected and then created a waterfall. It was just enough to make the sound of flowing water. After i had rested a while and tormented a few ants for long enough, I decided it was time to shove off. I was jsut about to put my helmet back on when I heard an animal in the bushes.